I loathed boarding school. It was the era of freaks and jocks and soshes, and there were only a few of us freaks at the Academy. We clung to each other like bedraggled survivors in a leaky lifeboat.
It wasn’t all bad, of course. I liked several of my teachers, and they liked me. I did have my friends for comfort and solace, and I could always share a smoke with them at the greasy spoon across town. The place was banned by the school, which made it perfect as our getaway, our real home away from home. Straights were not welcome.
Mrs. D was straight as they came, but she was also very special. She took me as I was, bad attitude and all, and encouraged me in her art class for three whole years.She saw something in me, I know not what, and encouraged me to apply to the Rhode Island School of Design. But a career in art was out of the question, as far as my family were concerned, and I applied to other, less artsy places instead. I was to be “well rounded.”
My friends and I had somehow eventually made our way in our precarious lifeboat to the shores of graduation, college, and real life. And I chose, or had chosen for me, the road I was supposed to follow. I wasn’t very good at following this road, and ran off it pretty often. Still, I stayed more or less intact, and finally found a little pathway off that main road, with independence and love and worthwhile work at the end of it.
Still, now that I’m growing older, I realize how finite life really is, and how one choice can change everything. I don’t wish I’d gone to art school, but I do find myself once again making art. I love the path I found after so much searching, but there are still more paths to discover.
Is there time in one life to do everything one wants to do? I don’t know, but I’m going to try to find out.